ok this is officially bad...i hate this kind of feeling of wanting more...pls pls go AWAY
i dun tink i have the strength too stay away from it...
well its been a long time since i felt this way
but i am trying not to run away from it
m just taking things slow
but at the same time i dun wan it to happen after all the hu haas i had..
wat if it just a rebound for me
and its not sincere
I DUN WAN TO HURT THE OTHER PARTY
on the other side i duno wat on the mind wat if it is just a one sided thing
that i just put too much thoughts to it..
i duno... anymore
...I HATE THIS KINDA OF FEELING...
like wat LALA told me take things slow but not run away from it
u never noe
ainaa have been such a darling to hear my rants about it sorry hopefully ur not sick about it ;)
heya its been a while since i last update my blog so here goes...
been busy going on rehearsals for my kiddos concert
plus not to mention i was the emcee for the concert stress YES! cause my sup is always correcting the way i speak which sucks big time
hello how u expect me to change wen i have been speaking liddat for the past 21yrs of my life...HELLO !!
ouh yeah forgot to mention I HAVE OFFICIALLY COMPLETED MY BOND ON 1/11/2011 yay it calls for celebration!!!
so if anything tat they do to piss me off i CAN JUST HAPPILY WALK OUT period!
haha..
recently loads of things that is flooding inside my head...
basic things when your a girl
- finding boyfriend
- trying to figure out what i really want to do in life
- complentating if i sld continue studying in EC
YEAH common thoughts rite..ouh wells i am just trying to take things slow and be patience what path has been written for me...
hey all..
it has been a crazy madness week barely survived this weekend i am supp to do my lesson plan with subject web and all that but HELLO i dun have the time can??? my weekends are burnt for jalan raya because dad rented a car sooo i am not looking at my lesson plans can??
hehe anyway i think i am kinda too attached to the kids at my centre esp the younger ones they are adorably cute and also not forgetting when they made such a huge progess from the start when they come in and now omg..just amazed...my excitement is like being a mum who is looking at the progess of my kids haha.. take example JIA LIAN..her progess is simply amazing from calling me nooo...now GOOD MORNING TEACHER NUR...and she can understand ENGLISH...
and what makes me more excited this week is JAMES...when he first came in all he did was cry cry and call me JIE JIE and on tues smth amazingly cool happen he actually called my name.."cher nooo" and talking to him is like playing charades which he is soo good at it haha..u can actually understand him with his action eventhou he baby talks SIMPLY CUTENESS...
AWW going to work is never enjoyable when i wake up in the morning thinking what my day is going to be with my 14 kids but seeing the younger ones makes me goes ahh... nvm its ok ..and now some of my N2 kids are my trusted assistant..they really helped me alot..from taking care of my new boy (eventhou i am scared that i will give him alot of stress) well good thing he took his responsibility given to him seriously..and sze hng who loved maths i gave him a job to count if theres enough chairs for his classmates during tea break while i am busy cleaning the mattress..
overall i think i kinda trained my kids well I HOPED!!!
hmm 1st of all i must say HELLO blog i missed you haha
well it has been a year since i blogged
decided to revive it at random
been reading way way back of previous entries
reminising good old time that i had since i blogged from 2004
gosh that is such a long period...
well lets update what has been happening for the past year..
i graduated from SEEDS.. become a full time early childhood teacher.. my one and only sis got married and not forgetting my friends who still stayed with me through thick and thin kumawo.. without you guys by my side i prolly break into so many pieces..and also not forgetting my stress free getaway which i finally decided to get active and started dancing at CJ
AND YES!! I AM STILL INTO KPOP..
but kinda tone down abit
RITE???
well been to a few of their concerts >_<
anyway am supposed to be doing my work for tmr so i will try to update from time to time if i am free...so now i need to get back to work
so signing off.....
ITS U..U..UKISS...
DAY 1 (200610)
HMM..TITLE SAYS IT ALL..
i bought ukiss VVIP ticket..eventhou da price is OMG...i think its worth it cause...
i am entitled 2days one is autogrph session and one is showcase..album, poster & folder...
...AUTOGRAPH SESSION TODAY WAS OFF THE TOP...
NO RESTRICTIONS OR WAT SO EVER...(only no photo-taking on stage)
but who cares..you can simply shake thier hand..high 5 them..talk whatever you want..request to have your name written by them...OOOO I M LOVING IT..plus...looking at them so upclose..it woah....UNBELIVEABLE..how could such human being exist...you can never find one in SINGAPORE..trust me...FLAWLESS..FAIR SKIN...HUGE BUILD...MEGA HOTNESS..gosh no words to describe them...
i couldnt even make eye-contact..was dumbfounded...but i managed to open my mouth and requested alexander to wrote my name...while waiting for kevin to sign for me, alexander HIGH 5-ed me and said "THANK YOU FOR COMING" soohyun was hyper and said "BYE BYE" before i left the stage...it just such an amazing experience which well you gotta feel it yourselves..
DAY 2 (210610)
i request to come to work earlier last wk...so i managed to get out of work at 5pm..rush to ST JAMES...almost got lost never wen there before so its kinda my virgin night out at club...haha...met up with the rest of my friends...was rite at the back...thought that we cldnt see anytink but thank god for the 2nd floor...phew....stage was super close...n so was the speaker...which has its good and bad...good so that my vid will have more sounds rather than the shouting and screaming of fans...which is what happen da day before..cant even thier voice...bad because at the end of the showcase..my ears are practically deaf...
well we somehow got the best seats..only that we gotta stand in between chairs so our legs were cramped up..and i wasnt allow to show my hyperness coz there's a 65 year old aunties at the front seated...plus i cant move around that much...so yeah...but lucky one of them left so i was much more nearer..muahaha...if my hands are long enuff..mayb i could actually grab them..muahaha...throughout the showcase...mine eyes is set at the one and only one..now i got the feeling when they meant out of the crowd you can only see HIM..lights shun at only him..kinda think..haha...
a pity i wasnt da lucky winner to take part in the games...and also a pity i din take a vid when they are playing the games...after the games they each got a huge...jealous much???...xander pranked the fans...hilarious...
xander : lets play a game, i say "u"..you guys say "KISS", I say "KISS"..you guys say "ME"..
xander : U
fans : KISS
xander : KISS
fans : ME
* repeat 3 times*
xander : ME
FANS : KISS....ERRR...
for the 1st time ever they sang ballad...darn nice..check it out at my FB..well overall i m damn sastified...thx warner for creating such an opportunity...for me to be all fangirly..AGAIN...
.......I M OFFICIALLY SMITTEN.......
so finally i survived after the 5th day of working non stop...n yesh i almost lost my voice...and the kids are more scared of me and listen to me coz most of the time sayang them to much den all pijak kepale...of coz la most of the time i m only there for 2days..so duno heads or tail what the rest go thru during the 3days...so during the 2 days im there..i usually pampered them so much so they are not scared of me..haha..but being a bit fierce to them = losing my voice...having a bad sore throat now...but after the 5th day..i feel that they listen to me..coz the naughty ones...listens to me very well and even so manje to me...OR IZIT JUST THAT ITS FRIDAY..and they are tired alr...OR COULD IT BE I AM USUALLY THERE FOR 2 DAYS AND THEY DUN RESPECT ME??haha...i duno...cause the most hyper one in my class always ask me why i never come everyday....hmm well lets just see what happens next mon...
woah..its been six months since i blogged....well i duno if ppl are still reading this blog..but aniwae i still wanna type coz i m so lazy to do my assignment muahaha..i need to type something rite.?? well da past 6 months been busy going to classes and work at the same time..da pressure..da stress..hmm...well so far so good...managable...maybe due to the friends i met at SEEDS...thier craziness and bubbly and kecohness personalities mite have rub off some onto me...haha...
my kiddos are awesome...they never fail to make my day..everyday is a new day and new karenah...famous in my own small world...my fans are my kiddos..i dun need to be a movie star or international star..every morning wen i enter my workplace...i could hear them calling my name for at least 5 mins until i told them to settle down...so yeah...FAMOUS MUCH...haha i m trying to put into practice wateva i learn at SEEDS..baby steps...i guess..if only those oldies are willing to make the changes...reali trying to make a diff...like reina always said...yeah we are new tats y..tats wat everyone says..haha..i m trying means and ways and methods of handlings those...attention seeker..those like to buat perangai...
i have been so far their mak-tiris..coz i have 8 boys to take care..you tell me..every single second i hafta use my voice...like wat aida said "sing song"..lecturers told US..that we dont hafta do that...just impose rules and regulations..WE MUST TALK SOFTLY TO THEM coz they tend to follow us..yeah true..BUT SOMETIME IT JUST DOESNT WORK...maybe due to the fact that i m just there for 2 days....but yeah i m trying to lessen my "sing song"..lets see how it goes...
